I am driven by results, when something works I will do it and do it well. On the other side I am devastated by lack of results, when I am consciously eating well, hitting my daily steps, drinking water and going to the gym (especially after an exhausting rainy day with both boys) and then I step on the scale and its up (or the same which is more defeating sometimes)... That's when I quit, because doing nothing warrants the same results, so WHY DO ANYTHING??
Can you feel my frustration?? My day was determined in the first 5 minutes, because that was when the scale told me if I was a failure or not.
So I decided to step off the scale, which is huge (typically I weigh in 3+ times a day... Obsessive, right??). To prevent cheating; my morning starts (while still in bed) with drinking a litre of water. This skews any scale read and is enough to disuade my from it (learning your quirks and what works for you is part of adulting).
I'll let you know how that pans out tomorrow (Friday is weigh in). But as of now, I feel great, optimistic even.
I'm realizing now, laziness is genetic. My Mum, Dad and Brother are naturally lazy, I'm very aware of that. It's highlighted by Richard, who barely sleeps.
I feel my lazy gene kick in when spending all day in bed seems like a completely suitable way to spend a day. I have to make a conscience effort to take every step towards healthy. Literally EVERY STEP.
It's not an excuse, just another realization about myself.
I'd write more, but my lazy genes have overulled my desire to further explain.
Love!