Symptoms - Why?

Above is ONE picture I took of my thyroid, you can't really see the swelling, but I circled the

swelled area... not sure if this helps anyone who didn't know where the thyroid was.The one

on the left is the actual picture... its the better judge of my neck, because the one on the right

I had to move around and re-size.

Everyone keeps asking me 'Why are you doing this to yourself?' My symptoms this time are bad, but nothing new to report. I have headaches. I feel like a drug addict going through withdrawal. My head throbs and things get fuzzy. I lost all of my patience and my head is congested. My throat is all full of thyroid and I feel nauseous most of the time. I am tired, but not sleepy and I feel drained of all energy. So... why do I do this? Because these symptoms perfectly display the nasty side affects of a sugar addiction. The way I am feeling is because I took away all the crap my body had come to depend on. No I don't like feeling like this, but if my diet was good year round... I wouldn't feel like this during detox and as much as I call it 'detox' all it really is, is eating well; cutting out the crap, the fast food, the easy meals. Its finally treating my body the way it needs to be, to be healthy and happy for a lifetime. I wish I could sustain this mindset forever. I know that in a week I will feel better. I will feel fit and energized. I just have to get over the hump and learn to curve my cravings.

It helps that in 4 days I have lost 5 pounds, which i find very motivating. I want to hit my FINAL goal for my birthday. Its the same goal I have made for the last 3 years. I didn't expect it to take this long, but the journey is the memory and worth every nauseated step.

I feel all profound and smart today.

The other reason why I am doing all this... I want to keep my thyroid. I am willing to do anything and this diet/detox, might alleviate the stress I have put on my thyroid and give it a chance to recover. Who knows?

Love!

PS - My throat is still swollen and my thyroid is still bothering me. I was suppose to re-start the drops today, but I decided to give it ONE MORE day. Tomorrow I will re-start the drops in a smaller dosage.

Pounds to Lose: 20

I finally GET IT!

MUSCLE UP: 45minutes
CALORIES: 543

I feel like a NEW person... weird and VERY cliche, but I don't know where it came from. I am oddly motivated and finally realized 'you get out, what you put in'. Meaning if I half ass a work out and don't really commit the results aren't going to AMAZE me. And if I am going to spend an hour at the gym, why not make every second of it matter.

Today, for instance, I did muscle up. I typically work with 5 and 8 pound weights, plus a 12 pound body bar. I always pick the easy route, choosing to use the 5 over the 8. Today I thought why the hell am I spending time here slacking? No one is forcing to be here. I chose to be here... so today I took ONLY 8s and a 15 pound body bar. Everything burned and my arms shook, but I kept up. I was sweating more than I would like to admit too, but it felt good.

My point is... If you're going to run, RUN. If you're going to spin, SPIN. And if your going to work-out, WORK OUT! I hate those fakers... the pretty little girls with perfect make-up. You know the ones, they never break a sweat and leave 10minutes early. They drive me crazy, because they are the first to complain and not seeing results. I don't know why only NOW am I thinking about these things. Maybe because I am BACK on track... I am at my lowest weight in years and I can't wait to push through and get to my goal. I am recharged and excited to hit the gym (or pavement).

I am hoping to go for a run tonight... but it is almost 41 degrees and humid as all hell. I won't risk my health, but I won't risk my progress either.

I also need to say I am NOT hungry today... I packed a bigger lunch, mainly for variety, but I can't get through it. I want too... its all great food, but I am NOT hungry which is odd for me.

My extra snacks... Cashews (my fav) and deviled eggs. Yum! Recommended by my BOOT CAMP instructor, Carrie as a great source of protein, which I can NEVER get enough of and low in calories.

I didn't really have a recipe, but I knew what they were suppose to look like and Carrie mentioned something about mustard.

Deviled Eggs a la MOI!

Boil 2 LARGE eggs for 8minutes. Drain water from pot and fill with COLD water and ICE to chill. After 3 minutes de-shell eggs... carefully (I made four, but could only use two). Then with a sharp knife slice in half, careful not to split the white. Dig out the yolk and place in BOWL. Set WHITES in container, (preferable your transportation Tupperware to avoid extra moving). Mush the YOLKS into a thick paste. Add a half tablespoon of LITE mayo, a SQUIRT of mustard and a dash of pepper. Once smooth spoon into whites. Sprinkle paprika on top and ENJOY!

Calories: 160

Ok... It's home time and I am trying to eat my fresh cut fruit before I call it day.

Love!

Pounds to loose: 17(-7) - Body Fat Percentage Decline: 0.2% - Inches Lost: 3