Maybe I like being FAT!

Maybe that's not true, but some days I don't care.

Some days I have NO control... Its like a lift out of my body and watch it devour EVERYTHING in its path. Last night (and the day before) were those kind of days. I didn't want to go to the gym, but did and followed detox rules all day, but when I got home the cravings became TOO much and I ate everything.

I didn't even feel disgusting or full afterwards, which is surreal and not very helpful and preventing me from doing it again.

I have all the tools to be successful, but my will power is seriously lacking. I have NO drive. I tried on the wedding dresses and looked stunning... no improvement needed, damn dresses.

I am going to muscle up at lunch and for a run this evening... let's hope something changes and I get back in the swing of things soon.

Love!

Who the hell...

... works out when its 48 degrees???

Answer: THIS GIRL *pointing thumbs at my chest*

And now I feel like dying. It is so hot and I am in Air Conditioning, I worked out in AC, but it is still insanely hot! I could have stood outside for an hour and probably sweat more, but with the new detox I am really excited to weigh in tomorrow and thought a HUGE work-out might push me over under the limit.

I will report tomorrow!

Love!

ihola!

I am in a good mood today. I don't always know what that means, but honestly I feel good about life. I have had my ups and downs, stresses and disappointments. I think that's the reason I don't write. I try to keep this blog, light and fun with a dash of reality, but lately I just feel as if everything has been moving in fast forward and I am struggling to keep up.

Today, however, I feel good. I am back on track with my fitness and weight loss, my bridal party sorted itself out and I am happy to say I have a made of honor (Thank you Cheryl). Richard is back to work and I am finally starting to enjoy owning a house (all the bills are paid ;).

I am successfully on day 4 of my RE-TOX (that's redoing, the detox). Its not as hard as last time, although I am hungry most of the time and I did have a peanut M&M yesterday. I am down 6 pounds. I know it might be water, but my intake hasn't changed. I think it is honestly the sugar and wheat (I was never big on dairy).

So I have 17days left and I can't wait to see where this leaves me.

And I am going dress shopping on Saturday so let's hope the sample sizes fit on this less than perfect body.

Love!

PS - I am no longer obese either... crazy, right?! I never thought I was until I looked at my BMI on the doctors chart, but as of last night I left the Obese range and proudly walked into the Overweight range. I never thought I would celebrate being overweight... ha!