... I should write something. I have nothing to discuss. I have been going to Hot Yoga, fighting with Walter, drinking and gaining weight. Yes, that is how I deal with frustration, when I cancelled my Naturopath appointment it all went down hill, but I had no guidance of structure... I know she is going to give me hell when I do see her (on April 2nd), but I just can't do it. I have no drive, especially when it doesn't work and costs SO much. I figured out that I can do a 3 week detox that will end on April 2 if I start on March 12th. That way I might be able to salvage things and avoid a lecture, but I don't know.
I want to healthy, but Walter is working to dismiss all my efforts. I hate that guy.
As for where I am at with treatment. He swells everytime I do Hot Yoga... I don't know why, but I am not going to stop. I feel refreshed and stretched after every practise. Screw You, Walter! I stopped all drops, but that was a while ago. I just can't bring myself to make things worse. I found out yesterday I am on NO waiting list for the specialist as my GP forgot to call and tell me she isn't accepting new patients. I found a second choice and am waiting hear when my appointment is. Cross your fingers it is before the wedding... months before would be ideal. I don't want them fishing around in there weeks before the wedding and possibly mucking everything up.
That's it. Stress is killing me with this wedding planning trying to please everyone... I want the day I want, but I hate how many broken relationships it is causing.
Ok... this ramble is making me sad and thoughtful, it is too rainy to be sad as well.