Let's start with the bad, because that is how I roll (which I will contradict later in this blog... lol). I thought I was doing SO well on this weight loss venture... I mean I am over 45 pounds down (I say 'over 45' because it changes daily). but this morning pictures were posted from the weekend and I look disgusting. *sad face* I hate that... granted my friends have all been blessed with perfect little bodies, but I thought I was getting closer to fitting in... nope. I am still just the fat friend standing on the outside. Its so upsetting... although, it does re-motivate me with a direct STAB at my self esteem.
So that is the bad... fine, I will get over it. I will work harder and I will get there, but today in pictures it sucks.
The good... the oddly good. First, I went on a boat cruise yesterday with work... yes, I have an amazing job... I am not great on boats and was scared of the temptation, but it worked out really well. I hung out on the top deck... one might even call it the Lido deck of this tiny venture. I got some sun and caught up with friends... when I did venture into the haul (I think that's the downstairs in boat language) I was excited to partake in a Tarot card reading. I am skeptic, but a believer... odd I know, but I do believe in energys and fate... I just don't know if the people I talk to can see it. This woman 'Christina' I think, was good... she asked my name and told me to think of a question. She then dealt cards and said... ok, this will be easier in conversation format...
PS - People in my office are noticing the 'Member of the Month' at the gym. I blush every time, but it feels good.